Wednesday, July 30, 2014

This weeks wishlist

Saw some lovely things this week. Oh, to be rich! :)

1. Chebran shoes
2. Boden Flowershow Dress 
3. Michael Kors Hamilton Bag
4. Albion Poppy Swimsuit
5. Fine Grain tablet stand

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Now that I'm a year older

Now that I'm an another year older, and, of course, wiser too, I thought I'd give some of the things I've learned this last year. Especially, when it comes to finding your own happiness.

Be content with where you are.
No matter your stage of life all of us want something more. I want a house, husband, and kids. Instead I've got roommates, an 8x10 room, and 90% of my stuff in that room. I've been squirreling away stuff for the future--china, pots and pans, bedding, knickknacks. All good stuff to have one day, not necessarily good to have today. So I downsized from a queen to a twin and got rid of some of those "someday" stuff and it's been liberating.

Find fulfillment in your job. 
Being single, a lot of my identity comes from my job. And trust me, if you hate your job that spills over into the rest of your life. One of the best things I did for myself last year was to find a job that I love and that brings me joy and happiness. So, if you're struggling in your life take a good look at your job and, if needed, make some changes.

Be realistic in expectations.
I still want the fairytale ending to my life.  That fairytale ending may still have him riding in on a white horse, he's probably going to pulling a cart full of hurts and fears. And if I'm honest, I probably do too.

Don't give deadlines for when things will happen.
Each year I've put start dating someone/and or get married on my yearly to-do list and each year I feel like a failure when I didn't get that one "goal" even though I crossed everything off of my list. Getting married isn't on the list this year. Surpringly removing it from the list has meant one of my better dating years so far.

Have one or two outfits where you feel beautiful in.
It's so much easier to face family parties and dates feeling beautiful.

Find what works for you when it comes to being social.
Just because something worked for others didn't mean that it worked for me. I don't like large parties, but I have friends who thrive on them. Others won't do online stuff, but it's worked for me.

Cultivate and maintain great friendships.
I have some of the most incredible friends in the whole entire world. No, I'm serious. I won the friendship lottery.  They make me laugh and they heal my soul and I need them in my life.

Plan for the future.
While I'd love to think that I'll end up with a husband to take care of me, I'm also aware that I may end up having to take care of myself. I've moved from having a job to having a career. Things like 501Ks and health insurance are important to me. Not only do I have my yearly goals, I've now got a 5 and a 10 year plan (and am working on the 20).  Plus, there are still a lot of things I need to learn to be a better person 5, 10, 20 years from now single or married.

Take time for yourself. 
Get pedicures, splurge on expensive make-up, exercise, turn down social obligations, stay in for the weekend.

Make service a priority.
I get more out of my service at the Church History museum then I probably give. The thought of it all being over in October makes me sadder than I want to let on.

Give people the benefit of the doubt.
I'm trying to remember that every time someone who is married says, "You're so lucky to be single," "Enjoy it while you can," "I live vicariously through you," "She doesn't want to be in her 30's having kids," they don't mean to be hurtful in their comments.  Which, as my family can attest, I'm ubersensitive to comments about being single, but I'm learning how not to be.

Create a bucket list. Cross things off that bucket list.
I'm in love with bucket lists. I love trying things I wouldn't have been able to do otherwise. It's added depth to my life.

Try new things.
Be brave and adventurous. And that spirit is kind of attractive.

Put yourself out there.
Trust me. It's not easy. I've put myself out there in the last two months that I've probably done my whole entire life. It hasn't been easy. It's been a lot of work, but it's also been worth it.

Don't be afraid to make, and admit, mistakes.
I'd much rather give something my all and make a mistake then hold back a piece of me worry about "what if." Admitting that I'm wrong is whole different ball game. When I'm hurt it's almost impossible for me to admit that. It's liberating when I do.

Realize that you're tons more than your relationship status.
Some of the most incredible people are know are single. They serve, they have fulfilling jobs, they cultivate habits, they are spiritual, they are kind and generous and loyal. The label that gets put on them most often is "single" which is one, albeit important, aspect of who they are, in itself gives an incomplete picture of who they really are.


If you can change it, don't complain.
I've spent a lot of time over the last years bemoaning the fact that I'm single and guys aren't asking me out. There were a lot of things I could have done to change that situation, but I refused/didn't want to to do them. But if I'm not able to give it my all, I really can't complain when things don't turn out how I want.

Give it your all!
My biggest enemy is myself. I hold myself back all the time for fear of being hurt, rejected, disappointed.

Wednesday, June 04, 2014

Admitting I'm wrong

One of the things that makes dating bearable on occasion is being able to find the humor in situations. 

Earlier this week, I posted what I saw as a sweet, but humerous and slightly awkward, experience. I found it funny and relatable because I related to it because I know I've been the awkward one on dates. I've tripped, tried too hard, and miss read signs that have turned situations slightly uncomfortable.  I just wrote a few days about how dating turns the best if us into blubbering idiots. 

Unfortunately that didn't come across and some read it as me making fun of the situation. 

I'm so grateful for the guys that have taken the chance to get to know me. Dating isn't easy and I don't ever want to downplay their efforts. So this is my poor attempt of saying thank you for looking past me being an idiot in this game we call dating. 

Monday, June 02, 2014


I just finished my fourth date in as many days. Two were pretty good. Two were pretty painful. As I analyzed what the difference between the good and the bad, it all came down to one simple thing. Conversation. The good dates I came away feeling that I actually knew something about the guys. And more than just the superficial stuff you learn about someone when you meet them. 

Dating/friendships/family all require work. It's so much easier to invest when we know the person and you can't know the person without spending time with them. And you want to know something. I have some of the most incredible people in my life who have allowed me to see who they are, and who have in turn, have peered into my soul and smoothed the hurts. And that's a huge blessing. 

Sunday, June 01, 2014

Starting Over

I was going through my hope chest last week and pulled out my old journals. These 21 journal are about half of the daily journals I kept between the age of 14 and about 29. During those years, writing in my journal was such a part of my routine that I couldn't sleep if I hadn't done it. Then one day I stopped. I stopped because writing in my journal was no longer that moment where I could record my happenings or what I had learned, rather it had become a place where I vented my "why me." Instead of helping ease my frustration and fears, it was making them worse so I had to walk away.  As I've slowly pulled myself out of my dark place, I've wanted to begin again. But it's been hard to start over and rebuild that habit (definitely a life analogy there that I'm too tired to expand on at the moment).

I've decided to start again here. (Plus the whole accountability thing hopefully is going to help). For the next 30 days (#myJunelife) I'm going to be writing about my happenings--my hopes, fears, frustrations, adventures, triumphs, and disappointments and hopefully by the end I'll have reformed the daily journal writing habit.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Open Tabs

I can't believe that it's Friday already. Where did the time go? It probably has something to do with the fact that Monday was holiday, hip hip hooray, and the rest of the week has been spent preparing for an adventure to Miami. 90% of you have just started singing in your head, Welcome to Miami. Buenvenidos a Miami, and yes, you're welcome for getting that classic 90's song stuck in your head for the rest of the day.

These darling little people arrived for the summer. Happy, happy day. At least for the next couple months I'll be able to get my fill of all my nieces and nephews before they disappear again to the dark corners of the earth. :(

Now that you've gotten your cuteness fill, here's what caught my eye this week.

It's graduation time. Yah, for reaching that milestone and welcome to the real world. Which if nobody's told you by now, it's not as glamorous as you think it's going to be. Granted it's got some benefits. It's also got responsibility, drudgery, and real-life stuff.  Which is why I LOVED this graduation speech by Naval Admiral William H. McRaven at University of Texas. Seriously, you need to read it. It was honest about what graduates will face while reminding them so much of what happens in life is how they deal with disappointments.

Remember my last post about my dating monsoon? Well, this infographic gives a visual representation to what a dating adventure kind of looks like. It also makes me want to chart my own dating journey. Maybe I just will.

While I'll always love Provo, hopefully one day I'll find my way back, Salt Lake has become home. Which coming from a Utah country girl who thought everything past the point of the mountain was of the devil, it's saying something. I'm not the only one who has fallen in love with Salt Lake, Ty Burrell wrote a pretty great love letter to the city.

I have a fascination with maps and information and have collected my fair share of random information over the years. You'll not be disappointed with these 26 maps filled with useless information. I personally think #19 is pretty awesome.

And of course we've all seen the Vocal Point take on Newsies. Which not only was great, but fostered a need to watch the original. Still as awesome as it was when it came out 22 years ago. Yes, 22 years!